First of all today, on this freezing Monday, I would like to thank Mark, a.k.a. The Walking Man for my blatant rip off of his blog idea. Thanks Buddy, I owe you one! xo
As 2013 winds down, I will do my best to sum up my personal 'end of year list'. I am not sorry to see 2013 come to a close as it was a trying year at best. Experiencing the calendar year of holidays and events without my Dad and my Mother-in-law was surreal. As Dad's one year of passing came up, a large Manhattan was toasted in his honor as we marveled at how strange it was without Dad planted in front of my fireplace feasting on cookies and nuts-with his own large Manhattan in hand. And without Patty, who always swooped in with a mountain of presents for us all. In her absence, I decorated a small tree festooned with all of her costume jewelry and a picture of her near the star. It seemed that she was smiling down at us all. I am going to qualify this whole thing as the 'good'.
The bad....The overall holiday depression and desperation that leads people to do extreme things. I know things like murders of children and home invasions happen everyday, but it's always a sharper contrast with a backdrop of Christmas carols. The insane neediness of family's wishing for blankets and jackets and food in the midst of my own glut is completely depressing. Nothing I can ever do will ever be enough. God Bless those in need and I hope their new year reveals hope and compassion.
And do you want to see ugly? As I show up at the gym on Thursday, the place will be packed. Altho I will put in many a mile on the treadmill going nowhere, I hate it when 'my' parking spot is full and I have to trek across the parking lot. Patience has never been my strong suit, and waiting my turn aggravates me to no end. I like to get in, get done, and get out, and all the 'resolution people' will totally slow me down. I love it when January is done and the place clears back out to just us regular idiots. Gotta learn to play well with others...for awhile anyways.
As I spend New Years Eve (my least favorite holiday of all!) quietly with a few close friends, I will toast in 2014 with wishes of health, happiness, peace and love to all. xoxo
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